Is god unfair to me?????

Sometimes... I do feel life really sux.... I don't mean to blame all on god... But sometimes i feel why is god so unfair at times... When i was young god has taken away my mum.. Leaving me without someone important in my life. I grew up different from many ppl.. Without a mother there to look after and care and love. Just this person that god took away from me left me with lots of damage. I was without love, care, concern and warm from a family. My dad did remarry, but sometimes i really wonder why he did that for. He say he wants to find me a mother. But in the end i feel that they form their own family sort of like forgetting that there is also someone there too that also need a family.

Slowly i grew up, and still i feel i am still left out in the family. I tried to mend all these, still it seems like i am the odd one out from my family. God i do need some attention from you too. Are we all not ur kids.... Or your so call children. Why some of us a treated different from the others. I do not ask for riches i only ask for love, care and concern by my family. Riches can be earn easily but family love is not something which i can buy using money. It was suppose to be made since the day we "your kids, your children" came to this world.

I am glad that now, i have a group of friends who i started to build on my own. I wonder is this ppl what you gave to me in return of taking something away from me. To me i feel that my friends and brother was what i found on my own. I hope you do not take anyone of them away from me again.

God all i really ask for is to have someone to love, care, concern and give me warm. This is my only wish since young when i started to understand things. I hope you can really grant me this wish!!!